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It's not in the best interests of MY FUTURE to continue this blog until further notice. God, I wish I could, I really do. But I can't. Not for a while. I'll be back...when I can.

So yeah, my Phillies team made it all the way to the World Series--in fact, I'm watching it right now, wearing my Phillies shirt, grasping my Phillies towel, all with my Phillies hat on backwards. What can I say? I'm a HUGE fan. So there isn't a lot to report on lately... I sort of have a boyfriend...sort of. I've been "talking" (or whatever the hell you want to call it, I prefer "dating") this boy. I'm opposed to nickname making at this point, so we'll just call him T. He's very nice to me, if not somewhat nerdy. But I've established my nerdiness, so its not that bad. I dunno what else to say. I like him. It's not bad. Buttttt...on the side... Yeah, I'll admit, I've got another dude on the side. THIS DOES NOT MAKE ME A SLUT. At least I don't think it does. I mean, you'd have to look at it from my situation as well. But I've been hanging out with this other guy for a few months now, and we basically just call e...

Field hockey season is over...I no longer have purpose after school... =( [Sniffles] Yeah right. I spent all afternoon zonked out on the couch. Homework? Yeah right. College apps? Uhh, yeah...maybe... [Skitters away]

I'm all right. I just hate that he says that kind of stuff to me, hence the reason for the vague and upset post. I'm over it. We lost another hockey game today. What else is new? Yesterday we thought my little sister broke her wrist, but she didn't, so she's okay...but my other little sister got nailed with a field hockey ball at her game today, and now they think SHE may have broken her hand. It's ridiculous. I'm tired. =( And good news...I'm kind of... talking to someone...he's pretty cute, very nice, and JUST the right amount of nerdy...!

Him: It’s just weird because you are the only one that made me question my love for her Him: I love and hate that I only see you once a week now I love cause it doesn’t have to hurt when I go to work but I hate it cause I wish I could see you every second of every day Him: I’m sorry… For everything for not being able to give you everything you want but I love you I really do I know that doesn’t help anything just make it worse even but I feel you deserve to know I can’t do this anymore.

Yaaaaayyy...my Phillies are the NL East champions once again! Last Year: This Year: w00t!

So yeah, I have four field hockey games this week. (As of right now, we've got two down, two to go) And according to recent mandates formed by coach, we're having a timed run on Thursday, the only day when we do NOT have a game. So far, I have played in BOTH games this week, the ENTIRE game. This is somewhat remarkable, considering I didn't start in any of the games last week. So this is contest to the fact that I have a dwindling social life as of late...however, I am trying. REALLY. I was invited to a party on Friday, BUT (there's always a big but) I can't go because I'm BABYSITTING. Ugh, revolting. Haven't done that shit in months . AND I have to work early Saturday morning, all...day...long. My brain's gonna dry up and flop out of my left ear. And I've been kind of trying to get this guy from school to date me...it's a very long-winded series of events so far that involve a lot of he-said/she-said drama, including the school librarian, who...

It's raining here. Literally and metaphorically. What a depressing shithole.

It seems like I'm always getting in trouble these days... parked in the WRONG parking lot disappointing my parents in a different way than before late, didn't show, forgot stuff staying up too late laziness putting things off making out with an old boyfriend (oh god I don't even WANT to go there...*vomit*) buying fucking Jonas Brothers' cd (WHAT THE FUCK, seriously!) mouthing off Dude...I don't even know what to say. Maybe I'm finally hitting that rebellious streak?

GAH. Sick sick sick. Not a creative thought has passed through my head in the last twenty four hours. Cold meds are starting to kick in, and yes, they are the sleepy kind. I'm like swaying on my feet...but I'm sitting. I sleep on MY TERMS, goddamnit! Hehe. Oh god, I need to sleep. Right now. PS- My schedule was wrong--what else is new?--but here it is: English 4 Sociology Psychology Study Hall Economics and Government Math 1 Selected Topics Spanish 4 French 3 Woo-hoo.

That stupid cold! It WAS hiding, waiting for the PERFECT moment to strike. I'm absolutely certain this time, I am sick. With snot, inflamed sinuses, and a headache that could put a hangover to shame! GAH! They say teenagers are always wishing they could feel normal, but I'm past that. I WISH I COULD FEEL HEALTHY, GODDAMNIT! Tylenol...tylenol...I NEED YOU! This is sick. Forreal. Ferserious. PS- Sarah Palin? WTF? But she is pretty. =)

"People are never to blame for things they don't understand. It's not their fault for agent orange or depleted uranium. It's the manipulative government that kills for profit. Not people. And i'll continue to fight until a fairer society arises. It helps me sleep at night. But um you could too. ;)" Communist friends. Gotta love 'em.

I HATE SCHOOL. The first day of school sucked some major ass. The only upside was a cute guy I sit behind in study hall. =)

Yeah, it was probably just allergies...again They LINGER for months, I'm telling you. And when they get really bad on certain days, you feel like you're dying. Sooo...I got my schedule for school: English Contemporary Problems Abnormal Psychology Computer Applications 3 Economics and Government Lifetime Fitness II Spanish IV French III In that order. Get excited! Senior year. Holy hell. OMFG. *Hyperventilates* College. SHIT. *GASP* AAAAAAAAAaaaaaahhhhHHHH!

Surprise surprise...! Im ill. Again. Still living up to my name, The Cold Queen. I think it has to do with being outside and running all around for field hockey (which is awesome fun by the way) and then coming inside and crashing in the AC. Today I was still sweating when I woke up from a nap, and it was very uncomfortable seeing as it was a cold sweat. And now, I just put a hoodie on because I was freezing, but I'm about to rip it off because I'm hot hot hot. I took some Tylenol last night that knocked me straight out...and when I woke up my sinuses were still clogged and en fuego. I got my school schedule, but it's not even right. I'm not in the right homeroom, and they totally macked out French 3...which "YES, I DO STILL WANT TO TAKE!" School starts in whatever, I don't remember. Ugh. NO! In other, astonishing news, my older sister is reading a book that she took from my room--this is shocking, really. She took Just Listen by Sarah Dessen. One of my f...

So yeah...I'm especially busy lately: school starts in less than a week new puppy field hockey preseason (yes we actually have a coach!) trying to work as much as possible before school starts library books are due back on 9/3/08 MASH and Link Crew and all other associations I'm affiliated with. I'll be in and out, but what else is new? Twilight the movie is now being released earlier, on November 21...that's pretty sweet. I'm gonna be a senior...ugh liek woah. Too much to think about! (PS- I've noticed I'm not as caps crazy as i used to be. i guess i'm just tired. =(

Breaking Dawn was awesome. =) I'm gonna be a little preoccupied now... Look:

I'm not going to be around for a few more days...I have a family reunion on Sunday AND... Breaking Dawn comes out on Saturday Well, Friday night. =) I'll be back later.

So I stopped into the library today, to reapply for my Nerd Club membership card...haha. I checked out 6 books, of which I don't remember all the titles right now. The shitty thing about the library right now is that all the good books are checked out. Boo. Annddd...I went to Target...shocker! Even when I'm not working I end up there. And Best Buy...I'm trying to buy a new camera because mine broke...I don't even know where to begin! And I went to Borders...and bought a Twilight poster! Oh jesus christ, I'm a shopaholic. This reign of money spending has...got...to...END!!! And after taking a rather disgruntled Tessie to the vet to get shots and ear medicine, I came home and ate dinner. And then after THAT I wanted ice cream. So I got in my car and drove to Wal-Mart (I spend too much time in those kind of stores lately...) where I saw this mysterious kid. Okay, so the kid's not so mysterious. I sat next to him in French II this year. He was new and came about 3 ...

MUST...STOP...SPENDING...MONEY!!!! Bought: 'nother James Dean poster.

Wow, my life is over. I woke up at 3:30 this afternoon. My penpal sent me my long-awaited birthday present: The goddess of plenty and joy, the cat Bastet (or Bast) represented the protective aspect of female power. A patroness of women and children, Bastet was honored with the most lavish celebrations in all of Egypt. It's a little cat eqyptian cat pendant. I love it. Really. Except... I hate cats, haha. I'm deathly allergic. But if the damn thing is going to protect my female power, then so be it. And besides, I love my penpal. She's like my 4th sister. And it IS very thoughtful. I LIKE IT. I'm serious.

So today was the l-o-n-g-e-s-t shift I have EVER had to endure at work... NINE HOURS. It was insane. By the end I felt like I was gonna drop . I woke up with a head cold ... brilliant! I am ONCE MORE the Cold Queen . Where's the Nyquil ? I came home and slept...and then went out for fast food. Now I'm here, and I think I'm probably going to sleep some more. And forget that Target ever existed. =)

Well, I haven't posted a long blog in a while, so I figured I would GRACE you with my literary presence, huh? It's still kind of Friday right now, considering it's 1 AM, but right now I'm just sitting at the computer, feeling all chatty and such. My cell phone's dead. It's sad really, a Friday night in the middle of the summer...and a fine young thang (just kidding!) like me doesn't have much to do. It's pitiful, really. But tomorrow I have a family reunion, and it's about an hour and a half away, so if I get tired I could always conk out in the car. July 19th. Hmm, doesn't really ring any "SIGNIFICANT DATES IN HISTORY" bells to me. I woke up at 2:30 PM today (like your average teenager!) and then proceeded to do nothing until 4 when I took my two younger sisters and their one friend shopping. WAIT WAIT WAIT, I know I know I know! I shouldn't really be shopping right now. In my last post I had said something about going on a crazy s...

So, I'm thinking that I have some issues... I keep BUYING EVERYTHING I SEE! Recently purchased: Camp Rock Soundtrack (STFU yoooou!) Harry Potter hoodie Harry Potter T-shirt aeropostale T-shirt several books friend's birthday present I have spent SO MUCH MONEY ! My bank account is still hovering slightly above one thousand, which I am NOT proud of, considering I work SO MUCH , and make a lot for a teenager. ANDDD...August 2nd, I'm gonna buy Breaking Dawn ...oh man, I'm gonna go into debt. I'm so freaking materialistic! *sighomgwow*

I'm trying to go to bed before 2am. I swear! The plan is to take my sisters to the pool and sleep in the sun! That way, mom can't yell at me for sleeping all day. =D Wow, I sound like I'm 14. Next I'm gonna start talking about the Jonas Brothers, Hannah Montana, Camp Rock, and High School Musical 3. This is what summer is DOING TO MEEEEEEEE!!!

No more frappuccinos for a month! Recently acquired: Katy Perry - One of the Boys Incubus - Light Grenades The Raconteurs - Broken Boy Soldiers The White Stripes - Icky Thump And that pushes my count of CDs this year to 5,000,000. MUST NOT SPEND MONEY!!

Seems like lately I've been getting headaches. Ever since I was in Penn State, all I seem to know is that my head constantly feels heavier than the rest of my body and aches from the inside out. Sunday I had a migraine at work, and couldn't even stand the lights, much less my co-worker's annoying voice (an understatement!) and the backfiring of the walkie every now and then. But it wasn't nearly as bad as the one I had last year during field hockey season...I could barely open my eyes, and the sound was HORRIBLE. What is it, am I getting OLD or something? *shudder*

Soooo... Yes, I know. I'm a really bad blog owner. But with the new video-making rush, it's almost so much easier! I don't have to be creative. Which is a lame excuse, but...I'll find something to write here, I swear to goodness. I got back from Penn State on Thursday, and was pretty listless. I'm re-reading the Twilight series, considering the new book debuts on August 2nd. Breaking Dawn. Mmhmm. I'm SO EXCITED! Maybe even moreso than Harry Potter...maybe? But for now, I'm working endless shifts and overloading on technology...iPod, car, PC, TV, and back again...the cycle never ends! Oh, and books. Can't forget them. =) Peace, lovers!

Summer weekdays can be sooo monotonous. Can you believe I'm looking forward to school starting already?!? Just kidding. I'm enjoying the vacation, not-so-much the idling. I wish I had something worthwhile to do. In the meantime, I've been reading The Host by Stephenie Meyer. It's a good one. Startlingly odd, but good so far. I'm on page 43 though, haha. It's a big one. So, today I attempted to get started doing something...and failed. I'm gonna try and clean my room tomorrow, I SWEAR. Really. No, believe me, I'm serious. My room requires some extreme excavation, and once it's clean, it'll be one less thing to stress over--not that there's much to stress over...EXCEPT THAT I'M LEAVING FOR PENN STATE IN ...a couple days. Check the widget, yo. Oh man, I went to search for widgets, and killed like 2 hours. It's now 2:28 am as I finish this. Shows how easily I get distracted, huh? GOOD NIGHT!

Good God, it's hot. I drove about 2 miles from home to drop my dad and uncle off somewhere...and my legs were sliding off the leather seat. Yeah, that's right. It's SWEAT. It good news, I'm going to Penn State in two weeks! I'm gonna diary it, it's gonna be brilliant. I can't even wait!

Yeah yeah yeah, I'm back, we got it. Hooray. I'm merely back to report my dissatisfaction with the fact that I did not pass my self-given-out screen test. I got a new video camera, and it's HD. Basically it sees every FREAKIN' pore on my face, and I'm breaking out rather horribly. And I'm tired, and dirty. Not to mention, I get too distracted by other things, I pause wildly and never know what to talk about, and I always get distracted and look at other things. See? I even got distracted there, so I mentioned that I got distracted, again. There we go, I said it four times. AND my camera is FREAKIN' out with my system. It's too high-tech for my PC. Along with English and French finals to study for tomorrow, it looks like I've got a LOT of work to do!

I'll be back soon love. Right now I'm a prisoner of homework. And finals start next week. JUNE 5th...freedom.

Prom was great. =)

Had a great birthday. =) Nooootttt really allowed on the computer during the week anymore. Prom's this Saturday. I'll have TONS of pics, I promise. No, seriously. I will. I swear.

is my 17th birthday. =)

Oh yeah, my birthday's this Friday. I forgot to mention.

It's bought! Pictures soon.

OH MY GOD. I FEEL IT'S COMPLETELY NECESSARY TO USE ALL CAPS. I WAS JUST ACCEPTED TO A MULTICULTURAL JOURNALISM WORKSHOP AT PENN STATE FOR TWO WEEKS THIS SUMMER...AND IT'S FREE! OMG. OMG. OMG. =DDDD

So that was Model Weekend. So many hot guys, so very little time. =( Overall, at least I kicked ass with the paper. Why does Pennsylvania have to be so BIG?!?

I've got WAY too much work to do to be posting something.

Me: Hey what's up Him: Hey nothing much were leaving oakland international airport in an hour and coming home Me: Sounds like fun? How was hawaii? Me: Shay says hi, haha Him: Oh hey sorry hi shay lol Me: So i have a question Him: Oh ok and hawaii and san francisco were cool Me: Well, it was shay's idea, but would u want to go to mtown's prom w/me? Him: Yeah sure whats the date of the prom? Me: May tenth Him: That sounds good just let me double check the date when i get home Him: That sounds good i just have to double check p.s. Did i already send this? It wasn't in my outbox Me: Yeah haha nbd Him: Ok good lol Me: So I'm gonna have to talk to you when u get home...papers are due tmra, and i have to send/fax something to you... (AKA a stupid contract sheet...pshh) It was a shame, this other kid called me tonight and asked me. I had to turn him down. It's so weird, I had to turn down TWO guys this year for prom, and I don't even want to go! (Sort...

Ugh, today I'm feeling sick. All day long, I mope through the next class thinking "If I just make it through 3 more periods...2 more periods...1 more period..." The Cold Queen rides again. And it's a shame, (and bad for my grade point average) but today I fell asleep in Prob and Stat. Yeah, that's probably the WORST class to fall asleep in, considering how behind I am with PSSA testing and all that jazz, but I couldn't even keep my head up. Now I have to study our material double time because we have a quiz tomorrow. Ridiculous. I remember last year I talked--WAIT A MINUTE. I JUST NOW realized that I have had this blog (on and off, it changed often and it's not like I post every day) FOR A YEAR and 26 days! YAY FOR TLPA! I'm excited. Now I just realized that I've survived the blogosphere! My first post was on March 13th of last year, and even then I had been blogging for a few months on another site I later abandoned. Here's a look back: Tuesda...

Okay, so I had a really shitty day today. I locked my key in my car. (FOR THE FIRST TIME.) =( My dad (the awesome) broke in and got it though--which keep in mind, breaking into a 90's Volvo is no easy feat. Mine is a '99, and that thing was sealed up tighter than a can of tuna. I knew that he finally got in when I heard my car alarm BLARING in the driveway. Hey, at least we know it works, right? =) I was just having a completely ditzy day. I put too much money on a gas gift card for someone, and when my dad found out, he just told me to keep it. And I WILL! But I don't know, I just felt so stupid today. Like my head wasn't working right. Then we had softball practice for my dad's team...and I have finally come to the realization that I SUCK. Like, I really suck. I don't even know why I try anymore, haha. Oh well, there's always tomorrow.

So, I had a lazy Sunday. I ditched community service this morning (yeah, it's bad, but I would've been picking up trash on the side of a highway, and I REFUSE REFUSE. Get it? Refuse the verb, and refuse the noun? Ahahaha I'm such a comedian. ) Then I had to work behind a desk, which sucked. I answered phones and retarded shit. I folded clothes, which I HATE. Ugh, I can't stand folding clothes. Later. (Oh, and I found a Harry Potter wand pen. It is a glorious day. =D)

HEY. I'M USING ALL CAPS BECAUSE I'M SUPER-UBER-MEGA EXCITED RIGHT NOW. I'M BACK, AND I HAVE INTERNET ACCESS! YAY EDDIEN AT VERIZON ONLINE TECH SUPPORT! THIS ONE'S FOR YOU!!!!!

Looks like I'm finally getting the hiatus I needed. I'm without internet access right now. The only way I got on right now was from my cousin's computer, and all the buttons are sticking like crazy. I'm trying to get back on, believe me. I'll be back as soon as I can. =(

Ugh, I'm finally living up to my name. Again. I'm sick. Sinus headache, regular headache, snot everywhere, body aches, not hungry, hot/cold. I am the Cold Queen . 'Cept this doesn't feel like a cold, this is SICK . GAH! My head is killing me. Where's the NYQUIL...?!?! I've just kind of hung around all day...oh, and I watched the French movie L'Auberge Espagnole . GREAT movie, so cute. But then again, I don't fully understand ALL french movies. They say that they're masters of cinematography, but really...just a lot of raunchy jokes, haha. Well, I dunno what I'm gonna go do now. Blow my nose, probably. Figures, I'm incredibly sick on the first day of SPRING AND the first day of my Spring Break . This shit is BANANAS . B-A-NA-NA-S . Yeah, I said it. =D

I'm back. And the funny thing is, I've still got so much on my mind...but I don't even know how to put it out in words! Me, the dramatic teen heroine...yet my life is nowhere near as exciting as an action movie. =) *Shrug*

My life has reached a point of complete suckiness. I'm failing three courses. Mini-hiatus. I'll be around.

boomp3.com False alarm...I'm doing all right. I think it was just a lack of sleep starting to weigh down on me...which the problem was fixed today with a... SNOW DAY!!! Yes, we indeed had a snow day today. No school, which was to be expected. (Now, we have a day tacked off of Spring break, no fair!) We got a yucky overnight storm last night and it completely hindered morning rush hour. Not to mention, it started to rain after sunset, which all turned to ice. There's crashes all over the place, and I attempted to drive in it...yeah, not pretty. Thanks to my winter driving package on Viv (the Volvo) I made it up the worst hill in town without swerving as much as the van in front of me...but it was very icy and I did spin out a little when I accelerated. I was supposed to babysit tonight, but they cancelled...they tried to reschedule for tomorrow night, but I told them I couldn't because I have my little sister's birthday party AND I don't get off work until 7:45. Whic...

Crash crash crash crash... Ugh, I DO NOT feel well. The first illness of '08, making it's debut! They don't call me the cold queen for nothing...! Tonight it's supposed to DUMP snow on us. All day Friday. Here's hoping for a snow day. =(

Can't get this out of my head right now...and I LOVE her tattoo!

Yeah, I've been pretty much poking fun at The Big Guy lately, I'll admit. Whoever's in charge up there must not be watching me very well. By my last...disastrous post, you'll know that I'm on the express line to Hell at this point. I'm a rebel. =) Today I played bumper cars with my Volvo, Viv. I just didn't stop in time...and CRASH. No harm done, only a few scratches. When you're actually in the car and you SLAM forward and it feels like you're seriously playing bumper cars, then it seems dramatic. And it REALLY, REALLY sucks when ALL your friends drive past you. OHHHHHHMYGOD it sucks so bad. But I'm fine. And my dad wasn't very angry, because I was freaking upset and bawling and shaken up. My poor Viv. I feel bad for her the most, I'm such a bad mommy. (For those of you that don't follow, Viv is my car. My car is my baby.) That among other things, and today was kind of a shitty day. Shit, fuck damnit GAHHHH! Ugh. And lately I've ...

This week has been...so long. I'm just ready for it to be over. Did I mention there's a dance tomorrow? Yeaaaahhh, my lovely establishment of learning will not be graced with my presence. Ugh, I don't know what I'm going to do. I have to clean. And babysit. And...homework. (Yeah, I do my homework now.) *Sigh*!!! I need a break in this monotonous life of mine!

Friday Morning, text messages (verbatim!): "So my dad found out about me and [her] and he is furious he must of been snooping in my room but all i know is he is furious and its probably best I don't go anywhere tonight" me: *sigh* Figures. (I knew he was getting back with her RIGHT off the bat. He didn't have to use dramatics. But of course, it goes on...) "yeah he's really concerned for some reason usually he doesn't care what I do or will leave me alone" (Yeaaaah, sure!) me: He doesn't want you to go to hell. =] Tell your girlfriend I said "Howdy" at school today. (See, I told you I knew) "Yeah I'll be sure to do that" (Shows he's not a good liar.) Friday Night: me: Hey. "I saw [her] at school her mom called child services and had them get [her] and take her home just so she can have her do everything again she has absolutely nobody and she looked so emotionally Broken up so i got back together with her i...

So bad. Making out in the Target parking lot. I'm such a freak. It's sad. I need a reality check...no...wait, the fantasy is too good. =D BAH!! HAHAHA.

Ugh, I'm such a sucker. Last night I went to Target TO MEET HIM there. We hung out the whole time, laughing at stupid stuff that we don't get to see and notice when we're working. Had a GRAND time, it was great. We went out the parking lot, did a lot of talking and circling our cars until it started to rain. Then we got in his car and chilled for a while, listening to music. Sat there together for an hour. I held his hand, and he looked at me. This guy has some INTENSE eyes. Then our phones started ringing. My dad: "Where are you?" Me: "At Target, talking to some friends. I got a bit hung up." Dad: "Yeah, I know what friends. Get some milk." His dad called him once, and I began to get wary, because his dad knows about me, thinks I'm helping his son cheat on his girlfriend. Then he called AGAIN. So I kissed him on the cheek and BOLTED. Burned rubber and everything. We talked about it later. Yeah, I'm still gone. But so is he. I'm a d...

Ugh, I had the hiccups for TWO HOURS tonight. Ironically enough, when he called me, they went away. I KNOW, it's fucking weird and too utterly romantic for words. Stupid.

Do you like pie? I sure as hell do. Here is the best video of 2008.

I'll always remember 10 Things I Hate About You . Where you won my heart and Julia Stiles' too. I still want to see all your other work, Like Casanova where you act like a jerk. And Brokeback Mountain , it will be a classic-- As long as I can watch it and not feel that sick.* I'd sure like to squeeze you with tons of hugs. But now I can't because you couldn't lay off the drugs. No, I'm just kidding, your acting was great. I can't wait to see Dark Knight -- I'm saving the date. Heathcliff Andrew Ledger 1979-2008 *Just kidding. It rhymed.

I'm pitiful. Last night I watched The Notebook . Isn't that sad? Up until about 2am, I was texting this friend of mine from across the state. He was flirting, and being funny, but I really just couldn't...well, let's just say all of his jokes were going RIGHT over my head. I was all distraught and depressed...still am, a little bit. No love for Alexa. *Sigh* Yeah, don't mind me. I'm just being melodramatic. No school today...Thank you, Mr. King! Then softball practice at 3...! Peace dawgs. *Sigh*

Yeah. Unavailable guys are a fucker.I met up with him after work...to talk. Went like this: We were sitting at the table in Starbucks, and I started to fidget with the ring I wear on my left middle finger. It's some sort of chain-like design, supposed to symbolize ever-lasting life...or something. But he noticed I was wearing it, and asked me if I knew what it meant. I told him what I said above, and he says, "Yeah. It's Celtic." Me: "Oh great, something Irish..." (Jokingly. He's Irish and I'm Italian, so we always joke about the lovely differences between our heritages.) Him: "Yeah. I know...because I have one." Then he holds up his hand, and on his left ring finger, he's wearing a ring SCARILY similar to my own. This is just ANOTHER thing to add to the repertoire of Reasons Why We Should Be Together. He agrees. The chances of all of those things being similar between ANY two people...!! Well, let's just say I'm still going a l...

Do yourself a favor. Don't get involved with guys that have girlfriends. A short, messy history, fast forwarded to now... I work with this guy who likes me a lot. I like him a lot. Seems innocent enough, right? Well of course, he has a girlfriend. I say we can be friends, but I cross lines and break rules. He crosses lines and breaks rules. I'm a dirty mistress. I'm trying to end it, now, before anyone else (besides myself) gets hurt (mainly his girlfriend) but he won't... fucking ...LetItGo!

Sweet, sweet victory. Yes, I passed my driver's test. And the three days that I have spent driving have been amazing. I feel the independence, the grown-uppedness, the FREEDOM! It's thrilling. Truly thrilling. And it's almost perfect timing too. Things are just starting to get pretty complicated, haha. Softball's starting, I'm working, I have Youth and Government, I'm struggling to get my minimum amount of Key Club hours, and this week is... MIDTERMS! Yeah, get excited, haha. No, I'm a bit nervous, I have two of my hardest classes on the same day. Tomorrow I only have Spanish, so I can leave by 10 am. But then this girl Amelia needs me to tutor her in French, so I'm heading over to her house at 10:30. Good thing I can drive, huh?!? Haha. Maybe I'll learn something in the process, seeing as I've never really studied too much for a language midterm because they've always come pretty easy to me. I'm actually going to have to study this year....

I got a haircut for the first time in a year. =) Qu'en pensez-vous?

You know what's depressing? Again, this has to do with thinking one thing, and being told another, and just...well, screwing up your whole sense of this and that and all of the above . Well, for the longest time, I thought I was a pretty smart girl. I can be clever, witty, snarky, and sometimes even a bit...I don't know...um, an insufferable Know-It-All Spell-checker Grammar Snob? I've always been proud of that. But then I realized I live in the most culturally unaware, ridiculously protected, and horribly ignorant town in the America. Therefore, in the ranking of the Smarts of Life, I was ranked OUTRAGEOUSLY low. Like, embarassingly ignorant. Sure, I keep up with current events, and I am somewhat of a nerd. I feel like I know a lot of things for a mere sour-sixteen year old, but it does not even compare . There are GENIUSES out there, all over the place. And I bet they feel a lot better about themselves than I do. You want to know how they started their continuous str...

"And so it comes down, and I don't know anything..." So today...oh, today. This morning, I woke up and showered, and as usual, I didn't dry my hair. I don't usually do it anymore because the blow-dryer is so immensely damaging to my already split-ends. I pulled half of it up into a playful little side ponytail (NOT in the disgustingly 80's way, I'll show you what I mean some time) and got ready for school. My ride was late. So I texted him, and then called him. When I called him, my conversation was sort of...ehh, violent 's too strong of a word...more like...vivid. He showed up, extremely pissed off, and his windshield was not even defrosted. I had NO IDEA how he drove to my house without crashing. And he was very, very angry. APPARENTLY, his mother didn't make his tea according to his fancy. This was my first tip-off to something that I seriously considered later...but I'll get to that. (Edit: Probably in another post.) So he was angry that ...

Happy New Year! My resolution: Better Hair It's easy and attainable. =D Good: Today we had a squirt gun battle in my house with my dad, and my two younger sisters. It was pretty awesome fun. Bad: I have to go back to school tomorrow. Ugly: I also have a college orientation, a driver's test, and an orthodontist appt. in the next week. AND...we're revamping for the new year. I'm coming back!